a quick update

It's been a long week. It was good to be with family, but why we had together (a funeral) wasn't great, so what is there to say about that?
The funeral was nice, except the organist played so badly that it literally hurt my ears. I hate organs, anyway; its a horrid instrument of clanging dissonance that drowns out any hint of singing. No one better play the organ at my funeral.

I hope I don't sound irreverent or disrespectful. I wish my aunt had been there to make the comments herself, or laugh at my description. But of course, if she had, we wouldn't be there at all, would we?

Everyone was all red eyed and puffy from crying, but the horseradish on the sandwhiches was VERY fresh and not only cleared our sinuses; it felt like all the membranes were ripped out of our nasal cavities and upper palates, and our scalps were peeled back from our noses all the way to our backbones. My eyes still water thinking about it.

I'm going into automatic shutdown tomorrow; I need to re-charge. I'm tired, and I got more sleep than my Aunt Deb who slept like 2-3 hours a night last week. There was of course, a constant stream of people in the house (her house) and endless phone calls.

Somehow, in the hustle and bustle of things, I lost the chain to the necklace Nick gave me for Christmas. I found the heart in my purse, but no chain. I've looked everywhere, but I can't find it. I had the necklace sitting on the table, so I wouldn't lose it (I took it off to go to bed). Of all the things I would lose, why did it have to be that?

Hopefully I'll find it.

Yes, I know dying is a part of life, but it doesn't make it any easier. I still can't believe she's gone. I was gonna show her my book when I finished it, you know, and get her input. She wrote, too, was my big inspiration for writing. But I wanted her to see it; she was excited that I was writing. I would have spent more time talking to her if I had known; we all would have. Who cares about the book though, you know? It maybe doesn't matter now, though I have a feeling she'd want me to finish it. Well, I know she would. Life goes on, I guess. If that's one thing she showed us, it was to carry on, no matter what.

Well, gotta go for now.

Will try to catch up on everything later on.